Today I was asked, “What do you need?” I had just updated my mother with what is going on with my dad; I expressed my frustrations, fears and stress. She listened, provided her input and then asked me what I needed. I almost cried because what I need is not simple, nor is it just one thing. So after the flood of unrealistic desires went through my mind like I need my dad to be more cooperative, I need a new job, hell, I need new shoes I responded with, “I need a real vacation.” I haven’t had a true vacation away from home (aside from an occasional weekend away) in about 5 years. Funds are tight so any time away from work has consisted of day trips or watching TV all day in my PJs. No wonder I feel like a blob.
Her response to me was, “I will see what I can come up with.” I don’t know what this means and I don’t want to assume what she is thinking. Would it be wrong to hope for an all-expense paid vacation to Hawaii? Probably, but hey, at this point perhaps just the possibility will get me through the week. 🙂