I’ve been visiting WordPress everyday but had not been able to bring myself to post anything. The grueling events that are happening at my job are continuing to erode my ability to function like a proper human being. The annoying symptoms of my depression are preventing me from putting the events of my job into perspective and functioning like a proper human being. Basically I’m not now nor have I been for the last couple days a proper functioning human being.
Yesterday something strange started happening to some of the blogs I follow here on WordPress. Their accounts were getting suspended and they were being accused of abusing certain aspects of WordPress with the intent to Spam other bloggers. In my nonfunctioning irrational state I was really angry this was happening. It didn’t happen to me personally, but this all-encompassing, punish now and sort out the truth later way of doing things reminded me so much of what happens at work, it felt personal. In my head I created all these reasons why such drastic measures were unfounded, over the top and showed poor management of the site.
This bothered me so much I had difficulty falling asleep as I kept composing a scathing blog post I wanted to write regarding the injustice of what WordPress had done etc, etc. I’ve since read today that the bloggers are working it out with WordPress and their account privileges are being restored. Good thing as I’ve forgotten half of what I’m sure were very insightful and powerful things I had wanted to write. Yep, this is what happens when my depression gets angry. It grows, it plots, it plans, it obsesses, it forgets, and it goes back to the pit of despair.