My interview for the promotion is tomorrow morning and I’m trying very hard not to over think and raise my anxiety levels to unhealthy heights.
I’ve done everything I can to prepare. I read everything about the type of work I would be doing, I understand the requirements and how my current skills will be best suited, I updated my resume and references and have them printed on high quality resume paper (fancy cotton stuff), I bought a new interview outfit, I decided to go old school and do a black and white skirt suite with a sensible healed shoe, there is nothing more I need to do but show up 20 min early tomorrow and then answer their questions to the best of my ability.
So tell me friggin anxiety, what good are you doing for me right this very moment?! All you are doing is making it so that I can think of nothing else but what I may do wrong and making my stomach and head ache. You serve no purpose but to make me doubt my qualifications and wonder if they already have someone else in mind for the position.
Sure I may tell myself that if I don’t get the job that it’s OK. The worst that can happen is that it will be business as usual. But ohhh anxiety, you just cannot be satisfied with that can you, you suck monster. You cannot just accept that I will be just fine and the job I currently do is not the torture chamber you like to think it is.
Today will consist of fighting you off with everything I can. I will keep busy and not allow you to consume me. This is too important to me and I won’t allow you to invite your friends depression and self doubt along with you. Suck it anxiety, you are banished from today!!!
I just hope my arsenal of distractions, relaxation techniques, and positive thoughts gets me through this day.