I’m guessing sex is important if you want to try to get pregnant. But what do you do when you feel like the fattest, least desirable person in the world? How do you get your sexy on when all you want to do is tune out and disappear? This has been an especially difficult and long round of depression. Too much has been happening that each one alone is difficult. All at once it’s just debilitating. I’m guessing this is the part where having close friends would help. I always see in the movies when a character hits rock bottom it’s their best friends that come in with the wine and junk food to help them through it. My BF does his best and I love him for it…but he’s too close to a lot of the issues that have been happening. So are my parents.
What does one do when their libido takes a vacation and they have morphed into Jaba the Hut??
On a side note: I’m glad I started this blog. Even though some subscribers are spam it is thrilling to think people actually are interested. I’m all for the voyeuristic aspects of reading others lives. It is helpful to know that in the universe of mental illness I’m in a way “normal”. I’ve never tried being the exhibitionist because rejection sucks and I have no ego strength. Now that I have people (even fake ones) subscribing, woohoo!
So a huge thank you to the real and fake subscribers, you inspire me. And I hope to find others that can share in this trek into the abyss that is me.